Infertility

If infertility has taught me anything, it’s that I am not in control. Of anything. Ever. And just when I start to think I am in control, I get knocked back to down to size.

This is one of those stories.

My husband and I had been talking about maybe, sort of, possibly, looking into trying for a second baby. Our embryo storage bill was looming in the next few months, serving as a big, expensive reminder that our future babies were there, just waiting for us.

“I’m just not ready,” I kept thinking.

“But it’s time,” a voice in my head kept responding.

The worst thing about infertility is that there’s so much unknown. Within your own journey, the diagnostic process, treatment options, and even just how and why certain treatments do or don’t work.

There is no one-size-fits-all treatment, unfortunately.

If you’re doing an FET, you’ve likely already completed at least one IVF cycle and either did a freeze-all, or had embryos left over after your fresh transfer; or you’re using donor embryos.

Either way, the good news is that this will be really, really easy compared to pretty much every other treatment plan up to this point.

IVF… you’ve made it all the way here! First of all, I’m sorry. I’m sure it’s been a beatdown getting here, and it probably hurts your heart. You might be feeling like a failure; like you’ve let down yourself, your husband, your family, your bank account. You might be struggling with how to reconcile this with God. You might be struggling with how to reconcile this with your own plans and dreams. It’s a lot to work through.

You’re ready for an IUI! This one is exciting. For me, this protocol felt like the first real fertility treatment. Artificial insemination – the ol’ turkey baster method – like you hear about in movies and TV shows all the time, right? Sort of.